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I’m Lost

1 Nov


I’m all alone again. He went back to Korea yesterday. I feel really bad because I’m still waiting for his reply now. I don’t know if he is sleeping right now or drinking with his friends. I don’t know so I can’t sleep. I can’t do anything. I tried watching horror flicks but nothing scared the sadness out of me.. He fulfilled my semestral break. Now, he’s gone.. I’m all alone again.


Sweet tooth!

3 Sep


There are those sweet little gestures that girls can’t resist blushing to. Today, I told a story to my boyfriend. I told him that one of the kids I’m taking care of in my immersion in Laguna gave me a teddy bear chocolate. Then I told him that he had never given me flowers, chocolates and teddy bears before. I just told that to him because those are like the usual couple and courting gifts. I just wondered why I haven’t received things like that from him. Anyway, to cut the story short. Hihi. He went to the supermarket alone to buy tissue because he told me his stomach hurts but when he came back. He brought drinks and chocolates. Hihi. He saw me take pictures of these treats. He said these were very cheap chocolates so I don’t have to post it in my blog but in my mind, it’s the thought that counts. Hihi. ❤

Dreams: Death of a Parent

8 Aug

Before I slept my boyfriend told me that he will save money and bring me somewhere far away if I really wanted to get out of this house. In my dream, my boyfriend was in a sort of coma then my mother was dead. It happened in two different stories. Anyway, me and my boyfriend were in the airplane that crashed so I woke up in the hospital bed with blood on my forehead. My boyfriend’s bed was parallel to me. His face was all bandaged and he was sort of in a coma. My second dream was I went out to a camping trip with my classmates then after the trip before going home, the instructor gave us papers that were telling us that our parents died. Me and my brother rushed to go somewhere but halfway we met our parents then I don’t know the place but my mom told me to promise her that I will take up my master’s degree at this certain school I’m planning to enroll to. My father casually said that I’d be with my college friend Camille. I kissed my mom and it was just her face is cold then I knew she was dead. My heart hurt and I cried and cried in my dream. In my mind, was the saying, “be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it.” then I was finding my mom afterwards. She was gone. I also saw how my dad was with my mom. My mom was with her all the time after my mom died in my dream. It was like she wanted to meet us first before she goes away. I still looked for my mom while that was in my head. I asked her how about the business (me and my mom run a bag business together) but I couldn’t find her anymore. Then I woke up. Feeling really sorry because me and my father had a fight last night. I feel really bad. I just had to let this out.

I wanted to know what my dreams meant so, I googled for certain keywords and somehow I can relate to these interpretations I saw.

Death of a Parent:

Some teenagers dream of their parents dying as they start to become independent. This is a form of killing of dependent feelings about their parents as a means of growth. This happens in some relationships too, where we want to break with the person.

Frequently, as in the example, this might express desire to be free of them, or unexpressed aggression. Perhaps your love for or connection with that person has ‘died’. We often ‘kill’ our parents in dreams as we move toward independence. Or we may want someone ‘out of the way’ so we do not have to compete for attention and love.

When someone we know dies lots of things happen to us. First of all we have always thought of the person as being outside of us. Then suddenly they are gone from the outside world, and we either think of them as gone forever never to be seen again; or we do what dreams often do and find them inside of us. In this way we can discover a new relationship with them, either because they now communicate with us as a dead person, or we receive from them what they left in us.


Blood on the forehead:

To dream that you bumped or injured your forehead implies that you have made a poor judgment. It also indicates regret in something you did.


A Comatose Loved One:

If you are in a coma it could suggest that events or hurts in your life have caused you to withdraw or be largely incapable of interacting with other people and events. It can also portray a situation in which you have become unconscious or unaware of what is going on around you and have turned inwards.

But in most cases this is probably depicting a part of you hurt at some time and it closed down. For instance if you have been deeply hurt emotionally in a relationship, you may still go on being capable of relating at a certain level, but the part of you that enters deeply into sexual and emotional relationships may have closed down, as in a coma.

Dreaming about this usually means you have become more aware of the situation and there is an opportunity to heal and awaken that facet of yourself.

If somebody else is in a coma, this might still be about what is described above, but it can also show you relating to the person in a non-verbal, heart to heart manner. Sometimes this is shown in dreams where you feel out of contact with someone you love or care for. In such cases the dream is showing that it is only the surface level of communication that is missing.



My third gift: Cadbury Caramilk and M&M’s!

1 Jul


This is for his sweet tooth. He likes chocolates very very very very very much. Hihi!


My second gift: Spiderman Donuts!

1 Jul


This is my second gift for our 14th monthsary. My boyfriend is a spiderman fan. I’m happy he liked it. Hihi.

Thank you!

8 Jun

I’m new to wordpress and I’m so happy for all the love and support I’ve been getting here.^^ I know this is not as best as your homepage statistics but I’m glad that I was able to reach this height of viewers. I hope I can break yesterday’s record of 80 views! OMO. I’m a dreamer. I know. I’m sorry. Hihi. Thank you for everything everyone in wordpress for appreciating my pieces of art. ~_~

Asian Parents.

31 May

They are not just your parents. These rants are based on my opinion, general or specific, no comment..

1. If  you get a high grade, you get a price.

2. If you get a low grade, they will take your priced possessions.

3. You can’t take the course you want.

4. The only courses you can take in college are those in the medical, law or something with a high salary field.

5. They will pick your school.

6. You are just their children.

7. You can’t go out all the time or they will question you and call your school if what you are doing is legit.

8. They control you because they pay for your food, shelter, clothing, education and many more bills.

9. After reaching the legal age, you’re still not allowed to do anything.

10. You can’t date people below their standards physically.

11 You can’t date another race because in history they raped girls, killed people, bombed something, blah. blah. blah.

12. You can’t have a boyfriend until you graduate college.

13. After college, you still can’t have a boyfriend until you have a good job.

14. They will manipulate you until you’re 40+ years old.

15. You can’t answer back even if they said so.

16. If you answer back even if they said so, you can’t still answer back.

17. You can marry any guy as long as he has money, cars, a big company and a mansion.

18. When you do something wrong, they will tell you “WHEN I WAS YOUR AGE….”.

19. Anything besides studying is a waste of time.

20. You need to follow the same things that your successful relative did.


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